Even though a doctor has already told me that I am pregnant, I wanted to take a second test. I decided to wait a week later, thinking that the first one might have been a false positive, but this test is positive as well. (That really is a plus sign, even though the horizontal line looks a lot lighter in this picture.) I honestly think I bought the test because I started getting paranoid that I wasn't actually pregnant now that I want to be. Oh, the mood swings I am having! Ha! So now I have exactly one more week until my first prenatal appointment and I just can't wait!

I took this cheap CVS pregnancy test as confirmation and made my first pregnancy-related purchase today: Earth Mama Body Butter. It's a vegan body lotion to help with dry, itching, and stretching skin from pregnancy and will hopefully reduce stretch marks. I bought 2 bottles, so I hope it works and smells good! I'm sure it will though, as I've read so many good reviews on it.

Today I went to an urgent care facility in Norwood, MA for a completely unrelated issue and ended up finding out that I am pregnant! That sure explains the moodiness, my one day period last month, and all of the tenderness in my chest.

I have mixed feelings. I didn't plan this, so I am scared. I feel unprepared and inadequate to take on this responsibility. But I must be excited deep down because I have been googling anything and everything related to pregnancy all day. From "can my doctor be wrong?", to ultrasound pictures of eleven weeks, to blogs and vlogs of other pregnant women. The fact that I decided to make this blog already is also a small indication of excitement, I suppose...?

I hope to schedule a prenatal appointment soon to absolutely confirm that I am pregnant and find out more about what happens next. I haven't decided where to go yet. Maybe Norwood Hospital? That is where the urgent care facility recommended I begin. I also don't know how to tell anyone. For now, you are my own little secret.

My most curious thought at the moment: if you're really in there, how old are you? I'm still scared that you're there, but I secretly hope that you're there. <3