I am working on one of the most important things in my entire life: growing a baby!
My body is extraordinary. It has welcomed another tiny human to build it's own little nest inside of it and has promised to love and care and provide nutrients to it for as long as it grows--until it is able to sustain itself and is ready to enter the world on its own.
I have been just gliding through my pregnancy--literally skipping around at work, singing loudly to music in the car, joyfully cleaning my apartment, and proudly pampering myself with new boots, sweaters and make-up. I've had extremely mild symptoms--no morning sickness whatsoever, no real trouble sleeping except when I had my cold last month, no extreme weight gain or feeling huge (130ish lbs), no pain or discomfort from baby's movements, no heartburn or terrible gas, and no negative effects on my performance at work. In fact, the only symptoms I've had (aching boobs, bloating, moodiness) have been long gone for about eight weeks now! Currently, I'm only battling acne and lightheadedness (successfully, though!).
I feel exceptionally lucky. I am thoroughly enjoying a truly magical occurrence, and am lucky that it's happening right in my own body! I am loving every moment of being pregnant. I never thought it could be this pleasant and that I would feel this radiant! I love going through my day knowing I am carrying my little girl with me and it always brings a smile to my face when I feel her tumbling around in my tummy. She makes me feel important and invincible. If I can do this, what can't I do? I have a new responsibility and a new purpose, and I wouldn't give it up for anything. She is the greatest seed I've ever planted and I can't wait to see how she grows. She is going to change my whole life and I am so ready to let her.
With all of that being said, I really can't understand why other mothers don't want me to feel this way. I'm not saying people are wishing the worst for me or my baby, but I hate all the negative comments that come my way. Take these for example ---
Comments like these are not at all what a first time mum wants to hear! I know some women have a rough time during their pregnancy(ies), but we are not all alike. I'd really like to enjoy this short time I have with my little girl inside of me and not hear how she is going to turn into the devil at any second! It's like veteran mum's can't stand to hear about how how delighted I am or how smoothly my pregnancy is going. They don't want to hear that I don't have any complaints, or they are hoping to hear something awful because that is what they
experienced. Even people who have never had children (every single day
at work!) constantly ask how I am doing like I am going to break down
and shout about how miserable I am! That is honestly not the case. I
feel great, even better than at other points in my life. I really wish I
didn't have to hear all these "warnings" from other mums. There is
nothing anyone can say or do to make me love this journey any less or
wish that it was over or make me worry that I am doing something wrong.
There is nothing wrong or disheartening about enjoying the duties of
And I will say that I am so thankful that I can have this experience, because I know there are so many women out there that can't. While others are complaining and trying to worry new mums, I will keep my spirits high and soak up every joyous second of these precious moments. I never want to take this opportunity for granted, especially knowing that other women would give anything to have a glimpse of the possibilities that I have. My heart goes out to all of you.
To my sweet daughter-to-be, please know how much I love you already, and that I promise to do my best for you always, xoxo.