We went in for our first OB appointment today. I was so super nervous and just wanted to know that my baby is healthy. I filled out some paperwork that I never received in the mail, but should have, then was brought in, weighed, and immediately gave a urine sample. After a short wait (although it felt like a century) the midwife came in and asked if I had any questions before she began. I said I didn't because all I could think about was seeing my baby with the ultrasound. She explained what we would do in the appointment and what to expect in the near future. I had some questions about weight gain and essential vitamins (I will elaborate more on these in another post). She went over the welcome packet and gave me a ton of info to take home and read through. And FINALLY, we were ready for the ultrasound. The moment I was waiting for!

My baby immediately popped up on the screen and was tumbling all over the place! She is so active and completely adorable already. Her feet were up in the air, she was rolling over, moving her head everywhere! We could see the little flutter in her chest that was her heart beating.♥ It took a couple of tries to get a clear picture to be printed. She estimated that my little sprout is just over 11 weeks and gave us a due date of April 22nd. Then she used a doppler to hear the baby's heart beat. The experience was so amazing. We could hear it right away but since she was so active we lost it and couldn't find it again. But I was so happy to hear it for that short time, I was literally brought to tears. For the first time, I felt like something magical was happening inside of me. She gave us the printed pictures and gave us a few minutes alone in the room.

I had to give another urine sample on the way out and then we headed across the hall to the lab for blood tests. The lab tech, Margarita, made it quite an interesting experience! At the end she gave me a pink band aid and some (quite sugary) apple cranberry juice. Finally we headed back to reception and made an appointment next week for a Serial Sequential screening (for Down Syndrome) and then we were on our way! The OB part was about an hour and the lab part was about 15 minutes. Including wait times we were there for probably an hour and a half.

I'm literally frightened of my appointment on Friday. It is all I think about every single day. I keep thinking, 'what if my body and mind made all of this up and I'm not pregnant after all?' or worse, 'what if they can't find a heartbeat and I end up miscarrying?' And then I'm like, 'what if I'm more than twelve weeks and I haven't started taking any vitamins yet?' (this is highly unlikely, but I'm still worried since the baby's vital development stages are before this point). Ugh, I'm so stressed out!

Also, recently Ashton tells me that his dad is a twin. OMG hell no, that possibility cannot enter the mix. Two babies. Nope, it's just not happening.

Friday, please please come faster. I'm going crazy over here

Even though a doctor has already told me that I am pregnant, I wanted to take a second test. I decided to wait a week later, thinking that the first one might have been a false positive, but this test is positive as well. (That really is a plus sign, even though the horizontal line looks a lot lighter in this picture.) I honestly think I bought the test because I started getting paranoid that I wasn't actually pregnant now that I want to be. Oh, the mood swings I am having! Ha! So now I have exactly one more week until my first prenatal appointment and I just can't wait!

I took this cheap CVS pregnancy test as confirmation and made my first pregnancy-related purchase today: Earth Mama Body Butter. It's a vegan body lotion to help with dry, itching, and stretching skin from pregnancy and will hopefully reduce stretch marks. I bought 2 bottles, so I hope it works and smells good! I'm sure it will though, as I've read so many good reviews on it.

This morning I set up a primary care physician, chose an OB/GYN and scheduled several appointments. My first appointment is next friday, October 4th with a midwife, Elizabeth Kettyle, for an initial appointment, which I am told is the longest, about an hour! I'm so so nervous, but also can't wait. 9 days away! It seems like forever away right now. If all goes well with that appointment, my second one is scheduled for October 24 with Dr. Cristina Diaz and should only be about 15-20 minutes. Usually the second appointment is about a month after the first but the woman I spoke with in the OB department said I might be a few weeks further along than I think and I can always push back the date of the appointment depending on what I find out in my first appointment. (If I am further along than I think, the beginning of this has been a breeze!) I decided to go with Dedham Medical Associates for my OB/GYN since they have been the most helpful of all the places that I've called.

I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders now that I finally have scheduled appointments. But now I am just super anxious about them. I am excited and terrified of my first appointment already. I hope the baby is okay.