Monday, October 5, 2015

Baby Number Two.


Parenthood is a gift that I am lucky enough to be receiving for the second time. But as it is known, Ashton and I have never actually tried to have a baby. Liana sprang up on us before we could even blink, and baby number two was conceived against some incredible odds—I was on a 99.9% effective birth control for almost a year. Don’t get me wrong, unplanned does not mean unwanted. I was pretty nervous when I found out I was pregnant with Liana, but once I accepted it, I completely immersed myself in impending “mommyhood” and Liana has been the best surprise of my life. She finds a way to bring joy to every single day, even when I’m not with her. I regret having to send her to daycare for ten hours each day and that time seems to slip away in the moments that we are together.

My heart is full of so much love for my smart, beautiful baby girl that I am not quite sure how I will love our new baby as much as I love Liana. That is not something a mother should admit, and thinking about that fact saddens me. I was initially worried that I would feel nothing for the new baby and, for a short while, I even felt indifferent about telling people about the pregnancy. It wasn’t until recently—about three weeks ago—that I first felt a connection with my baby. One night I thought I felt movement, but it only lasted a second and I concluded that it was too early—I was only fifteen weeks along. But the next day at work, I definitely felt movement that lasted a good few minutes! Slightly weary, I waited until the next day. I have been feeling my little bean roll around every single day since that first day, and early last week Ashton felt it for the first time too. I am now nineteen weeks pregnant—almost halfway to giving birth—and I can say I am finally enjoying it.






Ps. As you can tell from the photo above, I have no doubt that Liana will make a wonderful big sister.

24 comments:

  1. Deasha was my surprise baby and she was the best surprise I have ever had. You and Desiree were planned and you both were the best plans I have ever made. Being a mom is the best feeling ever and you will and I know you have so much love for your new baby. You are a very good MUMMY hunny which I had no doubt you would be. LOVE you lots

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  2. I felt all of this too. I now have three daughters. Somehow things just fit together.

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  3. Only one of my children was planned, the other 3 were wonderful surprises, the fourth a delightful cherry on the top of the cake.
    Each child is unique, it always surprises me just how different siblings can be and our capacity to love more children is amazing, we have so much love for our children, that we do wonder how we will love anymore and I can reassure you after 4 that our hearts just grow, it doesn't lessen the love we have for current children, it just enhances it more so.
    Happy family making, good luck with the next baby, Sadie from Tiaras and Wellyboots

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    1. Aww thank you for the kind words, I am quite looking forward to my heart expanding and still overflowing! :)

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  4. Congratulations on your pregnancy, I've never experienced a surprise pregnancy as we struggle to conceive so can't imagine the whole host of thoughts you must have had but as the ladies above have said I'm sure it'll all work itself out and baby number 2 will be a blessing to your family x

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    1. Thank you, I'm beginning to believe that more so with each day that passes x

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  5. Congratulations, how lovely! I'm sure Liana will make a wonderful big sister! xx

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    1. Thank you, I'm sure she will, as long as she remembers to be gentle!

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  6. Congratulations, sounds like both your pregnancies were meant to be and you've taken such a lovely stance on what could be a tricky moment.

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    1. It is a struggle at times but I honestly try to stay positive and work with the cards that we are dealt. Liana has been an incredible gift and I'm sure our second baby will be just as special of a surprise.

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  7. Congratulations! I'm sure your little one will make a wonderful big sister, she looks very loving!

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    1. Aww thank you! I can tell already that she has a very big heart!

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  8. Congrats! I hear having two makes it easier, because they can play together. You'll have to let us know if it's true.

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    1. I am so hoping this is true! I'm also sure a bit of jealousy will emerge from our little diva before the sibling camaraderie sets in. Hopefully that goes by quickly though!

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  9. It's amazing how your love expands for two. My second is now 3 months and I couldn't love either of them more xx

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    1. Aww, so sweet. I am very much looking forward to having two. x

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  10. Once the baby is here you feel great and you will have the same connection. I love both my kids the same.

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    1. Thank you, you are probably right, I just have to worry a bit less.

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  11. I feel exactly the same and my 2nd baby is due in 10 days!!! I can't imagine loving anyone as much as my first. It's very odd. I'm sure it'll all be fine though. Congratulations by the way! Just realised I hadn't said that! There picture is very cute too x

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    1. Congrats on your little one as well! I had been following your Facebook page pretty closely waiting for the birth announcement!

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  12. Oh! I have felt exactly the same each time another one has been on the way, but the minute they're placed into your arms, you wonder how you could ever have doubted you would love them just as much as the others! Exciting times! It's lovely when you get those first little kicks!

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    1. This little one never sleeps! I feel rolling and kicking all day long. But I am completely adoring every movement. I can't wait to meet him or her and for newborn snuggles! x

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